brain functions and goings on.

11/8/24 its been a while fags. whats up my fellow degens? Trump won the election and i see so many people CRYING real tears online. like you set up your phone and recorded yourself... crying... get a grip. GET A GRIP ON A GUN I MEAN. in 2021 the very moment i was made aware of project 2025 i read the entire thing and thought to myself "this shit is retarded". i am begging you all to understand that laying down and taking it like a dead dog is retarded and so are you if you dont listen to me. women, gayz, trans ppl, melinated friends, all of yall need to take marksman lessons. and you need to conceal carry. illegal or not, it really dont matter. tacticool girlfriend on youtube is an awesome source ive been watching her for years and years atp. i have been shooting for 17 years and i am so glad because these trumpanzee bros think they can get a complex in their tiny male brains that they are gonna just walk around raping bitches and shit? kekkekekeekekekek if a man threatens you and you fear for your life, kill him. if a man tries to hurt you, kill him. do not hesitate. they will not hesitate when it comes to hurting you. peace will never work at this point. stop fucking crying and start working out. run every day. arm up. learn to defend yourself. stop having sex with men. do not date men. do not associate with men unless they are genuine allies. read the scum manifesto and see things from an extremist POV. you are only seeing neutral and opposite POV when you really need to understand the entire spectrum. this isnt new, nothing is new under the sun. we have fought FOUGHTTTTTTT NOT CRIEDDDDD and won before and we can do it again. if you think protecting yourself and your fellow women at all costs is extreme then you might as well just go be one of the male specie's concubines. i am not someones daughter or sister or neice i am I AM VIOLENT BY NATURE THEREFORE I AM. i am the black widow that will rip and tear through every single man who thinks that he can control me or any other woman for that matter. you are not horomonal or crazy women are VIOLENT IN NATURE. let the rage consume you. you got gravel in your gut and spit in your eyes and you wanna keep on taking it? fine. decide. now or never. lay and die. or get up and start hitting them back where it hurts. imagine if i wasnt taking an anti psychotic rn hahahahhaaaaaaaa..... i can think so deeply and so clearly now. i spew my word vomit here sure but inside i have a plan and a method. im not going to go arround popping a cap in people thats insane. but self defense is not illegal. and that is what i am advocating for. self defense at all costs. men are swine. anywayzz peace out lots of love hehe ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ 6/2/2024 i hate hate hate hate Hatttteeeee HHAAAATTTEEEEE it when ppl online put "trending" (wtf) mental illnesses in their bio. i saw it all the time when i used to use social media. and sometimes a family member close in age to me will say something or show me some crazy bullshit like that. the only mental illness you have is being an attention whore special snowflake. you are not multiple people. i feel like a completely different person when i have strong feelings too. i often do not feel like myself. but that is because i am borderline. i have a personality disorder. "h-hi im-m-m o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-llii--vverr" retarded ass shit needs to stop actually. it is hard enough to take simple things like depression seriously... and these stupid little girls are making certain very real things sound like a joke, and that makes it hard for people like myself to get properly diagnosed and treated. it directly corelates, you cannot tell me it doesn't. because you'd be wrong, and you can argue with the wall all you want. autism for example. i am embarassed to be autistic. sure yea sonic the hedgehog yippi but jesus fucking christ. im autistic, not stupid. maybe its a mysoginistic thing to say but i really do not care for how girls want everyone to know what they have going on. there is a big difference in me posting little rants on MY website that I made that 99.99999999999999% of the human population will never ever see, and getting my ass on shit tok and going "hey guys i caught myself stimming on video tee hee! look at my WRISTS uwu i did an oopsie guys" i would kindly ask to be shot in the head. if you see me doing that shit i need you to blow my brains out. double barrel buckshot right on my forehead. ... anywasys as for REAL shit.... wellbutrion is working!!!??? i am on 300mg daily, anxiety meds as needed. i noticed that that sinking feeling isn't constant. it isnt there at all sometimes. i can't remember the last time i really felt happy. for a very long time i truly thought i wouldn't ever be happy. i can't say that i am happy as a whole yet. but sometimes i feel the emotion. i want to talk to my therapist about my issues but i have a very very hard time trusting people. i don't want to tell people things because i am embarassed. most things that i share on here are surface. i am not going to sit here and type out the horrible and incredibly awful things that have happened to me. its not 'need to know' for anyone but me. but i still like to have an outlet i can look back on. thus why this even exists. i worry that someone will read all this and for some reason make it a whole thing but honestly that sounds more like a you problem than a me problem. why are YOU mad that I have problems that i am proactively working on solving and getting better??? my thoughts are "hmm maybe someone like me will see this and feel a little less alone, a little less crazy. maybe this will make someone want to work on their brain" and if you have a problem with that... uh idk kill yourself?? i am so serious there are only 2 things you can do and both options you die in the end. get over it, get help, live a semi normal life, die. or just kill yourself. it is absolutley that black and white. get better, or die trying. 5/26/2024 i went to the psychward very recently. and i haven't been working since.... everything feels super weird. in the ward it felt like days lasted forever, but not really in a bad way. just that i was present and undistracted in every moment of every day. anyways... 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